Within 3 days’ time my Director called me at my place of work that i should resume working immediately. It just feels like i’m in a relationship with someone who hates me when he’s on it. I am eavesdropping on your conversation...why does your wife feel mixed about the effects of the Adderall? Love. Submitted by YYZ on Wed, 10/06/2010 - 08:07, Submitted by revelation on Tue, 12/07/2010 - 01:05. The benefits of this drug (though I question if there even is any) will never outweigh how important it is to just simply be happy and loved. What is to come of all of this ? We were in contact again a few weeks later and he tells me he realized he needs to get help, because of how he treated me in our relationship and that he doesn’t know how he can be in any relationship due to the effects the drug has on him when he’s on and off of it. My husband has stated he will "consider" trying meds, but your statement kind of scared me. Submitted by Mr.E on Mon, 07/25/2016 - 21:33. It’s important that you get that sense of direction back as soon as you can. Have never believed in the supernatural or talk less of spell or even voodoo. Of course he was negative, she broke his heart, she was no longer the same person. I got great grades and I was frustrated with people who weren’t as interested in EVERYTHING as I was. If he’s going to be on it, I want him to take them properly so they last like they should. Your puruser/distancer talk is spot on and is multiplied by 100 with adderall. I don’t want this to seem like a story so i will just cut to the chase. But I really, really care about being myself around my boyfriend, Caleb, & my family especially too. Perhaps on the weekend his ADD behavior was more emphasized because he was going through some sort of withdrawal. He surrounded himself with fellow users and didn’t see any issue in using this drug under a false pretense. I thought I knew him but how could I have possibly really knew him if now I’m looking back and trying to figure out what was a lie and what was the truth ? Let me tell you this was not a good idea. This site is for anybody who struggles with Adderall use…at any stage. I am so over joyful as my month can not start to say all that really happened, It happened when i saw Ajayi advert online talking about been the best when there are so many spell casters online that i have used that has failed me.I spent almost close to $8000 dollars online for those spell casters that ripped me off my money without any result. I wish luck to those who are trying to quit and are continuing to do better for themselves. http://www.additudemag.com/adhd/article/9805.html, More natural remedies: http://www.earthclinic.com/cures/adhd.html. About 6 months ago she told me that she was not taking her adderall for several weeks while on break from college (December). I will say he has been on amphetamines low doses since he was young, his dad was innovative and a doctor, he went to harvard, dropped out and changed music in the USA forever. Thought about her. i started taking adderall when I was in my 20's then I stopped. It is getting close to two years post diagnosis and my wife doesn't really notice any of the changes for the good, like better communication, time management, better temper, more energy, improved memory and so on... What IS focused on is my weight loss and lack of appetite. Adderall negatively affects their sex life, some men experience the opposite. Poorly prescribed Adderall can ruin lives and ruin relationships. So I watched my closest friend, my sister, my cousin, become a shell of a human. I have recently adopted a dog, who I see and my child and I could never imagine leaving her. The things she was posting was some of the most negative things I’ve seen her say/post). With ongoing use, signs of Adderall addiction will show up within a person’s decision-making abilities as the drug’s effects cause damage to the brain’s cognitive centers. Often, the Pursuer/Distancer Effect spirals in on itself: one person starts distancing, then the second person feels like they are losing them and reacts by trying to pursue, which makes the first person feel smothered and want to distance more, which makes the second person want to pursue more, until the relationship breaks because either the distancer can’t handle the “clinginess” or the pursuer can’t handle the unhealthy stress/emotional distance. I kept it. I have felt like I was going crazy. We rarely see each other now. The recent article I just posted on here yesterday suggests that new research is now showing that exercise in combination with the right diet, and eliminating or keeping your alcohol consumption (if any?) She has awoken. Adderall Abuse in College Students. Or did you go on and off intermitently. It happens with me and my family too. I have found different characteristics in each behavior that I really love, and that I know are truly him. He values our relationship so much more now and we are together now! It had been 3 months and after getting on Adderall I barely gave my ex the time of day! I started adderall when I was 19. However, in the course of a week of him consistently taking the drug, little by little, it seemed like he wanted nothing to do with me. When we met in person, we even had more in common our dream of sailing the world. i just wish it wasn’t so addictive – that sucks!! Understanding the effects of adult ADHD on But this all makes sense. I have always been aware of his problems with drugs and have always offered support of any kind to help him. Heaven know i was gonna kill myself because i really had nothing to leave for and he didn’t even care if i lived or died. Here recently, she has stopped taking it for about a month. Super frustrated because the person I get on the weekends is either very giddy depending on how I interact with him. That’s a problem. The only drug I take and like is Lamictal – It works with little to no side effect. A NO brainer you might say. I am posting this to the forum for anybody that is interested in meeting Dr baba nnaji for any help in life… You can mail him….baba100spelltemple@gmail.com, (1) If you want your ex back. (3) You want to be promoted in your office. I was going to kill him and kill myself after wards. Will I ever know ? I’ve tried to talk to him about it but he just brushes me off or blames me. Reading this article has helped me understand his behaviors more. I am ill, what I did in my 20’s led to 30’s with holes in my brain. 10 years of my life formed by a pill. And some days he gazed lovingly into my eyes like I was a princess or someone important. Violate trust. This habit of his really caused problems in the beginning. my family member has been percibed aderal for addd he had been taking it for 5 years doctor stoped seeing him because he could not get to office now worried he is getting on street he has been very distant with uncle and I was never like this worried was very close before we live in same house sad about his distantnce worried. Very taxing to be responsible for 2 peoples emotions. I knew of the mood swings, irritability, extreme sleepiness, all of the side effects of his crashes when he ran out, but we didn’t live together before we married so he’d try to manage his crashes to happen whenever we were apart. I quit Adderall when I was 24 because I missed eating and I hated being an irritable bitch from not eating. Because if I could change one thing in my life it would be never to have taken this sh*t in the first place. He’s going to come home and everything is going to revolve around him and how he’s doing and what he’s doing to get better while I stand along side him powerless and silent to the point where I change my entire life style all because of his stupid chooses . We are exactly one year apart (she’s one year older). Thank you again to all the people on this site. My heart goes out each of you. Is it because she simply doesn’t need me anymore? I know if it were not for the vyvanse and alcohol perverting and contorting my brain I would have never done this. How can I, myself, deal with it along the way? I don't know how much my ramblings will help you, but the lightbulb came on with my first dose of Adderall. Now that his brain is turned on, he is finally fulfilling his potential and he dropped 90 lbs. I don’t abuse or sell it. So she was slowly losing her mind due to not sleeping and being lead down a different thought path by this man. “ADHD symptoms are erratic. Let them know that it’s going to be a long trek, but that you’ll both be all the stronger on the other side. I am willing to make changes and sacrifices on my end if it meant it would help him. My wife of 16 years would periodicly leave me when thing in our relationship would get to a point where she couldn’t take the relationship anymore.This always devastated me and catch me completely off guard. Adderall works by altering central nervous functions. It’s extremely scary and makes me lose trust in my own ability to interpret my feelings. He started saying that he wanted everything to go away – friends, job, parents etc. Even without the adderall, I’m still interested in sociology & sustainability, & globalization … & all that other cool shit! It was a month ago exactly I went cold turkey off of it, and it was the best thing I ever did. I know something was clear to me that whatever action i took was my last chance to win her back. Not so. I usually see this in marriages where you’ve started taking Adderall over the course of the marriage and your significant other wants “the old you” back. I think what inevitably is going to happen is that I’m going to have to stay out of romantic relationships after my trip until I’m out of college, perhaps forever, to avoid the pain that this medication causes to personal relationships. I’m constantly being non-committal and pushing her away and she feels like I never tell her anything about what I’m thinking. Ask yourself this though, off adderall when you are not productive and unable to be consistent and unable to get things done, are you depressed? And the worst part is that he acts as though he doesn’t care and I mean nothing to him, but I know I mean so much to him and this drug impairs his thoughts and emotions. Yet his thoughtful, caring, intellectual side only comes out when he has the Adderall to help him sort through his thoughts. Thank you a bunch for sharing this with all But when i saw Dr Ajayi advert online saying that there is no spell caster like him and so many other testimonies about him from various people and from various countries in the world were it was written that ololo spell temple is the best that there is non to be compared to his work, Already i have personally take a decision never to apply to any spell caster online again after loosing such amount of funds on line to those scammers.But i don’t really know what drew my spirit / attention to that advert online that faithful afternoon, { I call it a faithful afternoon because all i desire was granted to me. } It makes me nice, calm and stable and helps a bit with the stimulant side off adderall. I had to take it for college or I would have never finished. Also the very day I met this guy he was already calling me by “ash” which is a nickname (Ashlyn is my name) and telling me he loves me. Her biggest gripe is that she doesn't know "me" anymore. revelation- I can second pretty much everything he said. I feel so depressed, like there is no meaning to life anymore. The other personality symptoms that come with Adderall use, like hyper-confidence and manic self-expressiveness, amplify the distancing effect. In my head there was nothing on earth that was ever going to get me involved in such thing but life as we know throw s**t at your door and some how the doors opens up and let it strike you. Philosophically I agree with quitting it, but the problem is not us, it is society, society is built around people who think confined, we do not, we are unique, we are the artists, the problem solvers, the executives, the entrepreneurs. Overview. The drinking would immediately effect me in a way to become more close with her as well, but the speed rush would make me say shit she didn’t appreciate which led to fights. I later found out it was because I was completely ignoring her. We broke up and went our separate ways. I’ve been an amazing girlfriend to him, I’ve stayed by his side, let him treat me badly forgave to be with him. I will eventually stop taking Adderall. How Adderall affects relationships. I only say this under the assumption that you are incredibly close to graduating already. My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost 3 years, and he’s been inconsistently using his adderall prescription for the majority of that time for ADHD. I have tried to talk with her about the way she is treating our relationship and she has no explanation; she does recognize what she is doing but can’t explain it other than she feels numb. My biggest fear is addiction to any pill. I just want this to be resolved. i did know it at the time but i knew something was off. I just don’t know what to do. I don’t think he is going to be on Adderall once summer vacation begins, but he’ll be back on it once school starts. The referance "Speed" is used as a jab at me, and I won't take the bait. We would make love like crazy. We drank together constantly at first. I would be happy with him either way – on it or off it, but I want consistency. I have a hard time being patient with him, but I am working on it. Good article, but I just want to add some additional thoughts: I have experienced what I would call an “opposite kind of effect” with my girlfriend who takes adderall. We loved each other like crazy. she took these drugs with no presription and didnt need these drugs to finish school , cause she was smart enough to do it on her own. I remember even as a freshman in high school being afraid that this medication would make my personality change. I don’t expect a solution to come easy, but this website has really gotten me thinking about what I can do to deal with this medication and perhaps eventually get off of it. In order to function properly one must continue his increased dose as dropping down will only make you take more. Its been great since but as I slowly have unintentionally upped my dose at work I find myself doing things like playing with legos for far too long on our us time orbeing distracted by the lawn mower guys when she comes to see me on lunch. I’m married to a wonderful man, who is also very focused on his work. So if I can find a better alternative before the dr keeps upping my dose, I want to nip it in the bud. Am going to leave his mail in case Metodoacamufortress @ yahoo. Submitted by CWilson on Thu, 01/28/2021 - 14:03. As foolish and crazy as this my sound , it was what i almost did. My problem is my husband now feels it like he can blame everything on my ADD and make me feel stupid for forgetting and now blames meds on me not listening saysmI’m to focused on other things. Hey, I’m 27 year old male from michigan. It's so true. Now that I am finally graduating I lost the person that I cared for in a 2 year relationship because of my short fuse and lack of empathy. I want her to feel good about herself and encourage her to walk with me, nor because I think she needs to, but to spend a little time together. I contacted Dr.baba for a love spell and he totally helped me! Submitted by c ur self on Fri, 01/29/2021 - 18:29, (I cannot convince him to make some changes.). Then in the next 2 days the FBI called to tell me that they have been able to get the scammer that is with my money. My feelings were distraught…I don’t know if that’s him or his adderall talking. So my wife and I always had this in common. This was after four year of dating. However before her trip I told her I had a bad feeling (her and I have always been on the intuitive side, we deeply believe in the spirit world) and I felt like she was going to find out he wasn’t what she thought. He didn't always pay attention to me, and his mind always seemed to be focused on something else. I mean i only found out the day he told me was no longer want to be with me that he was in love with my twin sister and he has been cheating on me with her. The effects of Adderall on your brain Because I really care for him, I agreed that maybe it would be best for both of us to take a step back. Most weekdays when he attends school or work he takes it in the morning, but on the weekends he prefers not to. I hate crying I feel weak. We were dependent on each other. I almost got fired and I told my manager to give me 2 more weeks because I was getting on something that would help. If you are on adderall for school I understand (if you are adhd) but if you are on it for any other reason why would you take it? com. It makes him such a good student, and his confidence in school is beautiful. It took me so long to trust him and yet I’m stuck thinking, was I too quick to trust? Usually i make them wait for 40 day but with Sean everything felt right. Use this email address as METODO ACAMU contact {metodoacamufortress @ yahoo. The evaluation said I had ADHD/ADD and he prescribed me Adderall. It feels very much like bipolar disorder only caused by medication. Maybe the longer she is off of it, the more balanced she will become.. Now, if you never have to work again and you are retired or super rich, I am all for quitting it, or at least not taking more than a tiny dose to wake up, that often can be enough to get you by. This article almost made me cry because I felt like it spoke so truly about my experience on Adderall. Adderall is a prescription drug used for the treatment of Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, or ADHD. Your only hope is to warn the other person first. I say, know your proper dosage, and proceed in moderation. They were also the first generation of Americans to habitually abuse these prescribed stimulants as “study drugs” well into high school and college (a 2012 review found that the nonmedical use of these pills represent the second most prevalent … We grew up and we’re raised together by our grandparents, so we were more like sisters. I want to help him get himself clean. I am buff and muscular and very sexual, however, alas, my attraction to people is on and off. I know if I had been in a relationship it would be ok to be on adderal during the day because at night it wears off and I get lonely (even though I reject everyone). I am a guy, I workout, had a trainer, got buff, but adderal def burns your hormones and lowers your testosterone, so I started hormone replacement therapy. We would go to the zoo, beaches, movies, etc. When he gets mean, most of the time I just walk away and give him space and sleep in the other room for my own mental health. I can tell you that I used to believe in quitting and being off of it, but who the hell will date you if you don’t make any money, get fired from your job, lose your business etc… the key with adderal is less is more. I am Niki’s cousin. With adderrall I can actually focus on my own life and am able to stop longing for the past. Especially since just a few days before, we were making plans for a future together. He is such a bright and extremely intelligent person…I hate to see someone waste themselves. I had visited Niki and Greg in February of 2016 when she first began her treatment for ADHD. He missed me and contacted me six months later. Even if you’re still taking more than you’re prescribed (e.g., 30mg + 10mg), at least start by fixing the dose at that and not going higher than that. I couldn't seem to figure out who he really was. mypclifeguard@gmail.com if anyone wants to talk. of us you actually realize what you are talking about! Supposedly, she takes this adderall with prozac.. She hates me asking her if she is taking her meds.. Last time i asked, she told me she was still on the prozac but stopped the adderal. It works but do I even need it or was the adderall just making me more anxious? My ex would tell me that I was being a ass and being mean and not caring about her feelings and I just kept denying it and denying it. or I could re-marry him and numb out his neglect with Adderall. I miss the giddiness. I should have said something sooner about the adderall but I guess I never thought it was that much to blame. This means the Adderall has allowed you to keep up a push-push balance, but you are secretly the puller in this relationship. I knew she loved me dearly but she was also in love with all the money and assets the man had. at least you arent alone…. It is important to learn to forgive yourself, and understand that the relationship you have with yourself is much more important than the relationship you have with anyone else. He sent me some items that he told me to use to pray with within the 7 days he was casting the spell i asked him to help me cast with the materials he told me to provide to for the spell casting. she knew i was content with what i had and what she had but she wanted to be so rich like adding riches ti what she already had. Adderall, and frankly many of the ADD drugs are scum. He is still on it, and healthy, I almost wonder if it is healthy long term, it keeps you active, keeps you thin, keeps your mental focus, when not abused, there may be arguments for it. He would also private message me to talk to me about how perfect my cousin is and his intentions with her are completely pure. You need to do both but differentiate the difference in your expectations and understand the difference if I can make that a suggestion for you. When we were about to “celebrate” our 10 year wedding anniversary, I found out I was pregnant with our 3rd child. You’re demanding a lot from this poor boy without adequately considering his perspective. But I did realize I had to make changes in the way I handled it. The problem is, unlike my boyfriend, it amplifies my emotions. I don’t mean to disrespect any elderly person i just don’t like it when rich old or young persons try to take or take someone you hold dearly to your heart cos they have the money to do so. Life off adderal is ok if you don’t have to work, but don’t be deceived, if you got a degree, you won’t be able to work without it. is there a way for me to believe what he is telling me is the truth or will i be stuck forever analyzing every word every story that come from his mouth? I have had similar emotional issues with it as explained above. This went on for at least a year. Adderall studies have shown improved social and cognitive abilities in those who are prescribed the drug. Hi This is going to be long, but please hear me out. But he told now that we’ve dated for 10 months and he got to know more parts of my personality he won’t want to be with me again. when you mentioned that you struggle with feeling like yourself when you are on the adderall, i feel the exact same way. He has finally stoped taking his meds. She was very verbal and emotionally crippling.. 10mg XR 1x daily. Bad day, let's get something really awesome for dinner. I feel like I’m nothing without him. She sometimes mixes alchohal with the pill which only makes the fights worst. I wasn’t the one who misused my medicine I wasn’t the one who had to go get help I wasn’t the one who did anything all I did was offer love and support and what I get in return is loneliness . It’s all up to him now and there’s nothing I can do or say to make sure he never does that. It’s a vicious cycle. I also get that my children will never love me the way I love them, but they will love their children the same way. Office work is nice and comfy and I wish I could have it(with reasonable pay) but I get antsy. It's easy to stay numb or enjoy this new feeling. So the question remains , will this always hold a power over us and keep us from being equals again? Oh, did I mention I’m 5 months pregnant? I just wonder how can I, as a partner/friend, help him? It will either get better or fall apart on each side of the pill. Over the past year our relationship has grown into a romantic one. If you need his help, trust me. I feel like my best friend is dead. When your parents said that, they had no way of knowing that as Adderall-taker, you are at risk of being largely blind to your natural passions. 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